I'm thinking that I need to write an apology, but then I realize that I also need to write a thank you.
In the former case, perhaps an apology is not quite warranted, though in the latter, a thank you is an absolute necessity.
Writing an apology would make me feel better even though it might make the friend I'm apologizing to feel uncomfortable, a specialty of mine she informed me this weekend, after I sang in the shower in the Radisson lobby.
And then I told her two different stories in which I made people very uncomfortable, making my friend uncomfortable too.
But I don't feel the need to apologize for that since my friend is a psychiatrist and finds things like that fascinating, just as she found the music festival full of intriguing monkey behavior.
What I do want to apologize for were the complications that arose as I was wrestling with my own monkey mind.
But sitting down to write an apology, I find the circumstances surrounding the apology much more interesting than the apology itself, so I write about that instead.
And in writing about that, I realize perhaps it isn't an apology I need to write, but a thank you.
Instead, I sit down and play some banjo.
(listen to some porch music)